There’s always something else…

Friendship Update…

Gosh, I feel like I’m in high school all over again.  I made a final attempt at being Jay’s friend.  I guess I felt kinda guilty since I really separated myself from her entirely, so I sent her an e-mail saying hey how’s it going, pretty much what’s up, I haven’t heard from you in a while.  This was Wednesday morning.  She got back to me via text message Wednesday night, I was sleeping and didn’t receive the message until Thursday morning.

I was up at 6 a.m. which is when I received the message that said, maybe we could get together tomorrow, anytime after 10 was good for her.  I was waiting until a decent hour to respond since, I don’t like to respond to people at a ludicrous hour.  By 9 a.m. I got another message from Jay…it said…I guess that’s a no.  Wow, talk about giving me a chance…I was kinda pissed off by this, but decided to take the high road and respond nicely saying sorry that I hadn’t gotten her message and have plans at 1:30 for my son, but we could do lunch or something.  She never responded.

I had no problem leaving it that way and was facing the music of never speaking to her on a more than casual level again when I got a phone call that night from her.  She apologized, but she got so busy that time just escaped her.  I accepted her apology and we began to have an almost oddly normal conversation.  I had to get off the phone, but we never talked about what actually happened to our friendship, so again, I was okay with just leaving things alone for a while, I was really just fed up at this point because she acted like nothing happened.

Friday morning, I was taking my son to the movies when I got a text message from Jay, she needed a baby sitter for her son.  Her mother was out of the country and the mother-in-law, who usually watches him, was taking care of a family emergency.  I felt this to be super odd since we only breifly spoke the day before on the phone, but figured, I’m a nice person, I’ll just go watch the kid.

The only conversation that happened after that was thank yous and here’s my numbers, etc. as if I were a babysitter.  Now, I’m not a babysitter, I did that job to be nice, and if our friendship goes out on that note, I’m okay with it.  I actually prefer it to just end because there is no point at continuing a friendship with someone who doesn’t say, hey how are you? 

I would NEVER leave my son with someone I was having a rocky friendship with no matter how trustworthy I thought they may be.  Hell, I won’t even let my own sister watch the kid because of her choice in extracirricular activities.  This leads me to ponder, what type of friend she really is (does she want to be my friend? or gain information about our once mutual friends?).  Again leaving me confused, but decided if that makes any sense at all.

Sometimes I feel like I’d be the only one left standing if things fell apart.

On another note, my motherboard on my computer is done for so I am patiently waiting for my new computer to arrive…hopefully it won’t be too much longer…

All comments on this subject and others are greatly appreciated as I find it helpful to hear from people who aren’t directly involved in my life as well as from those who are so Thank you all!